So we’re finally home. in Abbotsford, laying low… we’ve been home only about 3 weeks so far this year and we’re at the beginning of another 3 weeks off… glorious. As fun as the road is (and don’t get me wrong - it’s alot of fun) NOTHING beats coming home… especially to the Northwest… I can’t begin to explain how therapeutic the smells are… how calming the site of Mount Baker is… how amazing ABC perogies and farmer sausage can taste… And how energizing a walk through the trails behind the house with the dog can be. However, that said, coming home this time was different. The last time we were here was the day after the Abbotsford stop on the ‘I will go’ tour… The day after the floor gave way…. that day was alot of things for us - but mostly - it was a re-alignment… or maybe better put, a reckoning… to the urgency of the moment. Of all the ways that we were trying to communicate the message behind ‘i will go’ … speaking to our generation’s ‘indifference’ to the lost and poor… talking about the blinding nature of own privilege… singing about the illusion of our safety in North America, and our general apathy towards the things of God… NOTHING could have spoken louder to these things than the floor falling out from under us in the thick of our worship. God revealed to those in the room (and so many more) in a matter of seconds just how sovereign He is…. and in turn how precious, and utterly gifted to us each breath we breathe really is. I shed alot of tears and asked alot of hard questions in the weeks following… but ‘where were you God?’ was not one of them… I know we was right there… I felt him in that room as the floor gave way… There was that peace that passes all understanding… that gut-feeling of security in the middle of calamity - that can only come from God… and that’s the heart of it i think… not knowing, not understanding, but still trusting, still beleiving, still persevering and still ‘holding on’ . These are the things that shape us into kind of people God is trying to make us… If we let him. Back in Abby, almost exactly one month later, I’m still being shaped and changed by the events of April 25th… I kindof hope i never stop being shaped by what happened… Life is too short to get comfortable with our comfort… It’s such a facade… such a thin veil. i think that’s all i wanted to say… sorry it’s been so long 
tim.
home. the wonderful feeling of home.
30 Responses
May 23rd, 2008 at 7:48 pm
you guyz are so true and heartwarming….in other words, you practice what you preach….i think thats awesome!…so many bands have trouble doing this becasue they don’t consider it “cool” or they dont think it is the “popular” thing to do…god is using u guyz in a powerful way, and i think thats why the abbotsford thing happened..satan doesnt go after the weak, but the strong, and so he came after wat u were doing because you were leading so many people to god and were also living god-fearing lives, but i hope that you’ll never give up and always continue to be witnesses for god..one body, one church, one call to praise…:-)…. anywayz..i think you guyz are the best band ever created and i hope to see you soon..praying for you…god bless
May 23rd, 2008 at 10:09 pm
Wow, what you just said is so true and quite profound. We never know what’s going to happen next, but God is always there for us, through thick and thin.
You guys are an awesome band, i enjoy listening to the CD i won on April 25th just before the accident.
Thanks so much for coming back, and God bless you guys for making a difference.
May 24th, 2008 at 8:37 am
God is really using you guys to speak to alot of people (I know that for a fact) you have seriously spoken to me through your music, and through your blog too. Thanks so much for being open to what our Lord has for you, and I hope to see you soon! (in concert, or around Abbotsford)
Keep rockin’ out, and God bless you all!
Anna
May 24th, 2008 at 1:37 pm
Hi Starfield you guys are awesome.I mean WOW What your doing for God is totally amazing. You guys inspire me to actually do something like what your doing for God. Anyways, God bless :D^_^
God Bless Angel
May 24th, 2008 at 6:21 pm
Wow…I love they way you describe the feeling that you had in the midst of that collapse. I can’t even imagine how scared I would be and how much I would love to say that I would have felt calm and secure in that situation. I know it sounds terrible but I guess I haven’t quite gotten to that point in my life. The point where even when the world is falling around me that I will be found in the peace and security of God. I guess, now looking at it from that prospective, I kind of wish I was there. To feel how you felt in that moment…I guess I’m kind of rambling now haha Anyways I love your blogs and I think your music is pretty amazing!
May 24th, 2008 at 8:55 pm
God bless you guys. God is always with us. His strength is made perfect in our weakness and during situations like this! Enjoy home! God loves you and so do I! ^_^
May 24th, 2008 at 9:21 pm
hey Tim,
It is so absolutely freaking encouraging to see how you guys have carried on after Abbotsford.
I mentioned before, but a couple guys and I are starting a band in New Jersey, and right now we’re just trying to sort things out…who’s glory we are trying to seek out, our own, or God’s.
We know it must be such a struggle to be a Christian band who’s success is so great. But to see how your hearts have never wavered before God, even in the midst of all this craziness really gives me hope.
God is truly bringing revival to this generation, and wow…it gives me chills just to comprehend how He’s gonna use us..
God Bless! and keep coming back to JERSEY!
-Joe
May 25th, 2008 at 10:47 am
Hey guys,
I hope your enjoying your time at home!!!You have helped me alot to see how great God is,I was at your concert in Ottawa and I cryed because the lyrics just got me in the heart (if that makes sence)!!!Keep on going you guys are great!!!
May 25th, 2008 at 2:06 pm
hey starfield well i can’t tell you how glad I am that you are having a re concert I think thats very christlike to come back to all of us who were victims it means alot. pretty much what you have said in your blog is the exact realization I have come to. although the flashbacks and horrible feelings of panic we’ll last for who knows how long we all just need to turn our troubles over to God. Thank you and the band for caring so much about us,and i’m glad you are home and i hope you enjoy your time here. i work at abc so thats cool that you’ve been there,maybe i’ll see you there sometime hope you are all having a great day
jessa
May 25th, 2008 at 2:22 pm
Have seen you guys twice now…in San Diego last October and just a couple weeks ago in Spring Arbor, Mi. I’m a 50 year old mom with three teenagers and a husband that has been in youth ministry for 20 years. I’m convinced that the youth of today in America are searching, longing, seeking for something bigger and better than themselves…its just that they don’t want to do the hard work of dying to self. Keep up the good work of proclaiming His Love.
May 25th, 2008 at 5:23 pm
Hey guys (again)
just thought I’d say that I drove past Central Heights today, and could totally sense God’s love and power around it.
Blessings, and keep persevering even though sometimes it’s hard!
Enjoy your holiday!
Anna
May 26th, 2008 at 10:36 am
i am always so encouraged when i read your blogs. everything you say is so true. i hope and pray that the incident will only enhance your ministry to people. i love you guys! =] can’t wait for resurrection! God bless.
May 27th, 2008 at 8:07 am
I’m glad to see you at home again. It’s so encouraging to see christian group being so honest to their fans and to God. I love you guys so much. stay strong noth physically and spiritually. God bless.
May 27th, 2008 at 9:26 am
“Life is too short to get comfortable with our comfort”
Thats cool. And True.
May 27th, 2008 at 11:02 am
Hey Starfield. I agree with Steven. Sometimes I wish that I was in those kind of situation. To see God’s work in action. Ya know? That probably is silly for me to say. I guess it is great that I haven’t been in accidents like the one in Abbostford. And God is working through my family/brother right now. If you read these comments, could you pray that my brother, Joseph, (he’s 23) would get better? He has something called Ulcerative Colitis… (sp?) That is where you have Ulcers in your colon… so ya….. he’s had it since about the middle of January. He’s improving, but still is taking a bunch of pills.
This doesn’t really have to do with anything, but I came across this verse yesterday at bible study, and I now count is as one of my favorites. John 10:26-28. And something I always remember too: Everything will be ok in the end. right? (Romans 8:28) If somethings not ok, then its not the end. Your guys music is amazing! and now, whenever I listen to “From the corners of the Earth,” I remember how wonderful and powerful our God really is. And can even defeat satan. Bye for now. I hope to see another post soon! God bless you Tim, Jon, Gordie, and David. ?? (David, right? lol.) ok guys. God Bless!!!!!!
May 27th, 2008 at 11:48 am
Good to hear you all are home for a while. I agree…nothing beats coming back home, especially after a long leg of traveling, and even more so after something difficult and/or traumatic has happened. May God’s peace continue to rest in you all.
May 27th, 2008 at 12:27 pm
Hey guys! I just want to say how much I appreciate you guys continuing on your tour despite satan trying to stop. It’s a true testiment to “I Will Go!” and I love it! I was truly blessed to see you guys play in Winnipeg. Thanks you for coming home!
It’s been amazing to promote you guys as much as I possibly could through facebook, and I continue to support you 110%. Hope the last 2 concerts of Phase 1 of the tour go smoothly. I really wish I could be there! God bless you guys, and enjoy home. Enjoy the beauty. Enjoy God and His presence.
Your biggest fan for 7 years:
Ashley
May 27th, 2008 at 1:11 pm
Please keep Blogging TIm. It is sooooooo encouraging to See that even through success you put the focus on God where many “Christian” Bands became Proud and leaned on their own understanding. I have GREAT respect for you guys and love to hear your words. Through Lyrics, blogs, w/e You Guys Are AWESOME!!! Continue to keep God first and he will put you first. Because the word says the last shall be first. If you put yourself last he will put you first. God Bless….Don’t forget Keep on Blogging:D
May 27th, 2008 at 1:56 pm
I’m so happy that you’re coming to back to Abbotsford! Starfield is an amazing band doing an amazing thing with today’s youth. My friend and I were at the April 25th concert, and for 2 fourteen-year-old girls who were standing no less than 2 feet away from the hole in the floor when it gave way….well it was pretty traumatizing. However, God planned for it to happen and although it might look bad, He was there throughout the whole experience like you said. My friend who was there with me was baptized shortly after the accident as she said it just brought her so much closer to God.
That was my second time seeing you guys live. The first was at Creation Fest NW 2007. After you played, I went to the meet and greet and my friends and I were asking you guys a bunch of questions like “What’s your favourite animal?”. Jon said “a chipmunk cause it’s cute and it eats out of your hand!”. hahah. Anyways, I asked Jon when his birtday was and it turned out it was in 4 days! In the evening 4 days later, I remembered that and asked God to remind him that I said “Happy Birthday!”. I wasn’t sure if he would get the message or not, but then God told me that Jon said thanks. I’m not even sure if he’ll remember that or not. But it’s just amazing to think that even though there’s so much chaos in the world right now, God doesn’t mind playing messenger and delivering a birthday message. It’s not only stuff like the floor caving in at the concert that God shows us he cares, but also just through little things like that.
Anyways, God bless you guys as you have this time at home and I’ll be seeing you at the upcoming Abby concert!! Yay!
May 27th, 2008 at 3:46 pm
Hey Guys,
I was at the Abbotsford concert and fell through the floor. I ended up with a sore arm, scrapes and a concusion. (This comment is not made to make you feel bad about the accident, but the opposite) I also went to History Maker 08 and the theme was Miralces. There were many people who got healed and exprerienced miracles and I was one of them. I was healed of a major headache compliments of my concusion! I had no pain in my head at all! This miralce of healing really brought me closer to God and I wanted to let you guys know that the concusion did that for me. If you want to know more I would Love sharing my story with you guys!!!
May 27th, 2008 at 5:00 pm
Hey Tim! Enjoy youre Three Week Holidayy! You guys deserve it after last monthh! I thinks its awesome how you went on with the tour ! Thats really nice of you guys!
Keep being awesome! and making awesome music for all the christans out their!
(just remember im Starfields number one fan!! ) woot! haha
May 27th, 2008 at 5:15 pm
hey just wondering if your going to meet all of us for prayer since you missed the first one we had since your in abbotsfird are you guys going to set anything like that up?
May 28th, 2008 at 7:02 am
Hey i was just wondering if anyone had any advice
on writing songs,i’m 12 do you guys think i’m to young???I don’t have email so could you just post a comment???I realy look up to you guys because your using your talent for the glory of God!!!
I love your blogs and podcasts!!!Natalie
May 28th, 2008 at 2:27 pm
YOu guys are so unique. You’re not afriad to to live your faith. Even when it’s not cool and you do it anyway. You follow what you preach. It’s hard to come accross people like you. I could see a change in you guys after the concert (well, not literally b/c I couldn’t physically see you, but read what you wrote.) in how you guys handled the concerts after that one. You guys are so special and I hope you never change, if only for the better. I couldn’t agree more with you with your lasty statement. I need to work on that. Have a wonderful day Tim and God Bless.
Kelsie
May 29th, 2008 at 4:32 pm
Your post makes me think that you believe the events of that night were a result God’s will and not human error. I think it is offensive to individual’s that suffered to make their pain God’s will. And offensive to God to make our mistakes out to be his plan.
May 29th, 2008 at 4:43 pm
This blog contains very naive and offensive claims. Some of the worst that I have read online in some time. It has left me at a loss for words. There were so many things that I was going to say about having a proper theistic understanding of gratuitous evil and that God cannot be its cause, but I believe that reasoning is not the forte of the blogger . . . so why bother . . .
Recognizing any good that comes out of this great evil is not for Starfield to determine by fiat. That right belongs to those who have been injured, hurt, and maimed. Starfield has overstepped their boundaries and I sincerely hope that they will modify/remove this blog out of respect for those whose lives have been changed for the worse. You cannot hide negligence behind a veil of piety: that just offends me deeply.
May 29th, 2008 at 9:43 pm
so true. i see people posting comments like “where was God when the floor fell” and i just want to slap them up side the head.. when i was falling, i can honestly say i felt Gods presence there sooo strong. none of my questions to God were “where were you?” either, because i knew he was right there holding me up, and making sure i was not injured even though i had people land on top of me, and water dumped on me. I’m glad to have gotten out of the accident with a bit of a sore back,and knee, and scrapes and bruises, cause that is truly miraculous! the power of the words we were singing was truly amazing. Im SOOO bummed that i probably won’t be able to attend the concert on the 7th… because i was really looking forward to going to your concert for real this time!
but i love you all, and thank you for not being afraid to do what God has called you to do,
Peace out!
in Christ- Sarah
May 30th, 2008 at 10:34 am
Wow, what a wonderful blog, worth the wait! Thanks for always being an instrument of God to bless His people. May God continue to use you guys in bringing Glory to His Name.
Have a wonderful week.
Be blessed!
July 6th, 2008 at 2:35 pm
Awww! tim!!
that must have been terrifying seeing the floor drop right in front of u…
but i must say ur use of words was amazing
like half of those i had to look up in the dictionary
lol… well… i hope u guys had a fun time at home..
i wish i could experiance the same thing.
but down here in boring connecticut… theres not really anything past trees..
like not really any breathtaking views…
lol..
but where you are souns so relaxing…
wish i could be there.
XD
July 11th, 2008 at 9:15 am
I’ve just become a fan of your blogs
They make me happy =)